Personal Thoughts About Personal Ministry


Sometimes we place ourselves in a position to hear from God, and the silence is deafening. We begin to wonder if God has spoken to us. We begin to question whether He has called us. We begin to see our lives at a crossroads and we are not certain of which direction in which we must walk. As I continue my journey with getting to know God personally and sharing the things He has shared with the reading audience, I oftentimes find myself in this place. Sometimes, the thoughts pour out of my soul ever so freely. Then, there are those times like today wherein I find myself stumbling upon an empty riverbed whose bottom has not seen any refreshing springs or outpouring from the Holy Spirit in days. Those days seem like an eternity when you have become used to experiencing God on a daily basis. But what do you do when it seems as though the windows of Heaven have been closed and padlocked from the inside, and you have no way to enter in?…

Sometimes, unknown to the everyday believer, these are the things that those who are in a position of leadership within the Body of Christ experience more commonly than is disclosed. If the leaders are experiencing the same things as the everyday believer, then to whom do we turn whenever the leadership is experiencing a seasonal spiritual drought as well?

I am writing this because God has graced me with this platform to speak truthfully about life and relationships with Him and others and this is a major concern because sometimes leaders run dry from continuously pouring out unto others, but when they are empty, they have no one to pour back into them. This is when the leaders experience spiritual burnout. Some are able to maintain. Others walk away from it all. If we cannot be find another person with whom we can be vulnerable and share our ‘real’ feelings and struggles, then it becomes a bit much to bear alone. Nevertheless, we are expected to perform at the optimum level at all times because “…to whom much is given, much is required…” (Lk. 12:48).

Although this is true, it does not negate the fact that we are all human. We do experience life in the same manner as everyone else. Was this written as a cry of self-pity? Absolutely not! It was written because I felt the need to share some personal things about personal ministry that I am experiencing. I am writing this to remind everyone that we experience moments wherein we do not know in which direction the next step may take us sometimes as well. I am writing this to let everyone who may not know that we have to take a step back to reassess life and reboot it if necessary…just like the everyday believer.

We are not above reproach. We are not above carrying burdens. We are not above being momentarily incapacitated by spiritual assaults from the enemy. This was not written to bring despair…but to share the heart of leaders within the Body of Christ from around the world…

Please keep us lifted before the throne of grace…we could really use the Divine strength of the Almighty God…

Thank you and God Bless!!!..#‎thinkonthesethings‬