The Conflict Within

“Some trust in chariots, and some in horses: but we will remember the name of the Lord our God…” (Ps. 20:7).

Father, I must be real with You and with myself…sometimes You seems so far away, but I know You are always near me. In the times I need to hear You speaking to me, I often hear nothing. But I know in the midst of the silence You are still speaking. My flesh tells me that it is all in vain, but my spirit tells me that I will eventually understand it better. The enemy of my soul wants me to isolate myself from everything and everyone (including You), but You desire to spend time with me alone.

Father, there is this constant pulling…an inner struggle…one side making demands…the other giving commands…

Father, some days are sunny and bright, and then others are gray and dismal. Some days I do not know whether I am coming or going. The battle rages strong and I cannot stand within my own might. The constant fluctuations within my emotions tend to project to others the perception of an imbalanced state, but to You, it is a child seeking for his Ever-loving Father.

Father, it is answers for which I seek…please do not turn Your face from me…but turn Your ear towards me and hear the cry of my heart…


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